Okies...im taking a breather..well...i am after a busy morning. It seems that im more positive and optimism nowadays. Yesterday, i went for my regular check for the status of my ovaries. YES! i have two eggs again- one each side. It is always disappointing when im not pregnant. But the least, im still trying.
Dear Hubby voiced out that day that he was afraid that he and baby will become a burden to me. I know where he came from. He is already 52 this year. And to groom/feed a child need at least 21 years and by the time, our baby is 21 he will be ......52+21 .... wah!! 73 year old!! OMG....
No wonder he is worry..
Not saying that i am not worry but we could make plans now and save up some money for the future. I am worried that i will be alone when im old. I am not worried about hardship of bring my own kids. I am such a person that im so afraid of being alone. Sometimes, i am lonely and depressed especially when dear is out to work. Im always alone at home. I know he loves me alot but sometimes i just wish to have more of his accompany.
well, at least for now, im not pregnant and i never know when i will..but even so, we still have to makes plans for the rainy days.
It feels good not working and writing blog in my office to sort out my thoughts and its so peaceful today. And now im waiting for dear to pick me from work. :))))))))
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