Ktv night to wind down

Karaoke night with good friends.. good hobby to destress..

Oh lalalaaa.....  hahaha...

Bad news....

It already sad when i have a hard time being pregnant..Now im found out that i am diabetic and have detected protein in my urine. Thats quite sad... And it's like the end of my world.. what else can i do? i have to start everything from scratch like controlling my diet, plan to de-stress and think positive..

The pregnancy journey 2

Today i managed to settle down and finished all my planning and working for this Chinese New Year. And im here for blog writing.

:) I had just done my first IUI last Monday and now into my 2WW(weeks wait).

The side effect of eating prawns!!

I had some sensitive issue with seafood recently. And i just simply can't resist the charm of Prawn Noodle. OKies, i got what i deserve for being greedy. Now, im itch all over the body including my face, ears etc.... Now, im "disfigured". I think it would take some times for the wound to recover and the swell to lessen over some time. Yes, i took some OTC medicine prescribed by the pharmacist in Malaysia. "Oh yes,I went MY for my dinner and shopping. That's how i can endure the itchness.


So, im gonna keep my mouth shut to PRAWNS & SOTONGS!!!

taking a beather in my office

Okies...im taking a breather..well...i am after a busy morning. It seems that im more positive and optimism nowadays. Yesterday, i went for my regular check for the status of my ovaries. YES! i have two eggs again- one each side. It is always disappointing when im not pregnant. But the least, im still trying.

Dear Hubby voiced out that day that he was afraid that he and baby will become a burden to me. I know where he came from. He is already 52 this year. And to groom/feed a child need at least 21 years and by the time, our baby is 21 he will be ......52+21 .... wah!! 73 year old!! OMG....
No wonder he is worry..

Not saying that i am not worry but we could make plans now and save up some money for the future. I am worried that i will be alone when im old. I am not worried about hardship of bring my own kids. I am such a person that im so afraid of being alone. Sometimes, i am lonely and depressed especially when dear is out to work. Im always alone at home. I know he loves me alot but sometimes i just wish to have more of his accompany.

well, at least for now, im not pregnant and i never know when i will..but even so, we still have to makes plans for the rainy days.

It feels good not working and writing blog in my office to sort out my thoughts and its so peaceful today. And now im waiting for dear to pick me from work. :))))))))

my pregnancy journey month 2

Today is my second month with Dr. Cheng. After last month's scan which show i had two eggs,

-one side each ended up with zero pregnancy. Now,I am so happy to have two eggs on my left ovary. I was also given an injection to release my egg and will have to sexercise tonight and tomorrow so to "catch the egg". 

All the while, i was worried that i wasn't ovulating regulary. Or might have some problem in me. But now,after two scans and i am reacting to the medicine doctor gave. Im sure we will have our own bundle of joy soon.
 

This week also marks my long holiday of 3 month. I was abit sianz to return to work. I think i could be a very carefree housewife. But it was kind of boring too neither i wish to be back to work. It is always conflict with all sort of things...just like cross junction. Nevertheless, i still need to work out something. I will monitor and see if i really can cope with both work-stress and trying-to-conceive stress.

It seem suddenly, i started to write things about myself, something personal. I think writing inspired me more positive thought although im not really a writer. (hope those whom came across my blog understand what im writing.) Also it gave me a freedom to voice my inner feeling which i think i wouldn't tell anyone else. It not that im shy or what ..but it just kind of weird to tell people- Hey, I went to gynae today, had a scan and i have two eggs! Hahaaha....Perhaps it is why Chinese are often shy away from sex-related topic.

You know, i have been trying to conceive for almost 12 years! 5-6 years for nature -unprotected sex. 1-2 years- half serious attitude, 1-2 years almost serious attitude, Now, 1-2 tears super serious attitude. I have tried Eu RenSeng at Paragon with Xia Rong and stopped when i had Chicken pox and she has to go back to China. Hence, i stopped for a while.

This year, tried with a Chinese Phyiscan at AMK for few months and went for Scan, pap Smear etc. Necessary checks. At least, im confident at I am healthy. But HB wise, haiz, spearm test result was abit of weird. He has a condition - Hypersperm.....? Which doc said, he had very,very concentrated sperms but very gel. Which he thinks it caused to sperm stucked just in the small "pool" and not able to swim well.

Hope for the best after medication.


 

Wish me best of luck!! keep me in your prayers! 

Good to know tips - Kiwi fruits

**When buying the gold and green kiwifruits, pikc those that are slightly soft to touh, as you would when select a peach or ripe mango.

** To ripen kiwifruits, put them in a paper bag with apples and bananas. Both apples and banana produce a natural gas- ethylene- which helps to ripen fruits.

**For a quick brust of energy, grab some kiwi and whip up a smoothie. It's a super energy drink for growing adolescent and hungry kids. They also will help keep coughs and colds at bay.